miercuri, 17 aprilie 2013

Tower Of Sadness

JFK:
For we are opposed around the world by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarely on covert means for expanding its sphere of influenceon infiltration instead of invasion, on subversion instead of elections, on intimidation instead of free choice, on guerrillas by night instead of armies by day.

What are the causes and the seeds of depression?
Who's ultimately affected ? These are the questions
We all stand guilty and in need of a blessing
So we weave through the scriptures
To read as a reference
Foundations were laid years ago, etched in
Neglecting, rejection sent you in that direction
Your heart was exposed with no type of protection
The innocence you displayed was met with aggression
Lethal Injections to my trust of the masses
In the vein of my good side the needle was casted
Seeking to find peace in an hour of madness
Tryin'a stop adding bricks to my tower of sadness
Every day the hurt builds, deeper and deeper it drills
Nobody is understanding so I keep it concealed
All these artificial people say they're keeping it real
False happiness in alcohol, reefer and pills
Come on


Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)


They sit watching me closely, hesitant to approach me
Hoping that I'll let a professional diagnose me
Instead of communicating, they wait to sedate me
Making me deflate to unsafely medicate me
And turn me to a vegetable
With anti-depressants, bro
A cocktail of Paxil, Zoloft and Lexapro
The Prozac and Cymbalta make my moods alter
Not only mentally but my physical started to falter
So hard, oh Lord, no money, no job
Won't starve, options? sell dope, go rob
Can't seem to get no peace of mind
It's so chaotic and frustrating, borderline schizo
Deal with it, Get help, must make a fast choice
Conversations in my head, good voice, bad voice
Don't jump, jump now, somebody come help me
I just wish that me in my own head would accept me


Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)


Mind state not good, hurting since childhood
Over time your heart got harder than plywood
Trying to avert war, peace is what you search for
Abused from your parents, constructed the first floor
From love they disarmed you, the drugs only harm you
The mental facilities they build don't reform you
Every night you fight to not use the rifle
Your offspring heirs is the generational cycle
If tears could come out my eyes I would have been crying
They must be going backward and drowning me from the inside
Depression is testing me, a real problem I might have
Stress is the ocean and I'm floating on a life raft
Prayers in my head but I'm too shook to dial one
Everybody claim they got faith until the trial come
Long as you live you gon' have to face a lot of tests
You can take God all day with no side effects

Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)